Here's What Billie Eilish's Everything I Wanted Really Means

Several lines in "Everything I Wanted" describe deeper issues for the pop star, who frequently excavates her personal life in her art. She even references suicide at one point. However, in an interview with BBC Radio 1 (via Twitter), Billie Eilish explained the song is about her relationship with brother and collaborator Finneas O'Connell. She said, "We started writing it because I literally had a dream that I killed myself and nobody cared ... The internet s*** on me for killing myself, all this stuff, and it really did mess me up." 

The chorus details how O'Connell pulled his little sis back from the brink, the message being that they support each other no matter what. Billie Eilish revealed how important dreams are in her life to The Fader, noting, "I'll go through a month where I'll have the same nightmare every single night — a dream that's so bad that the whole day is off or a dream that's so good that none of it's true."